Terry
04-20-2012, 09:39 PM
Hello all
This is my first post on this site, I discovered by accident two days ago, seeking a way to kill myself. Then I traveled a bit diffférents forums available, and finally came across this CeuI.
I read some stories, some of which have really touched me. I want to talk, write or rather, what I saw in that moment, according to many people that I read, the AC has really helped, so I'll try to explain in as short as possible.
I'm 17 and I'm currently a couple with a daughter the same age, my first love, a little over 3 years. We live together, and we were really happy, I think.
But there are just ready six months, according to her, our relationship is a little worse, I devenai apparently too cold, distant at times, and shortly attentionner. I do not have realized, but it's true that by doing some soul-searching, now I realize that I do are perhaps not always been perfect, but after all, no one is.
A month ago, she left an internship as part of his studies, in a city 150 miles from where we live, where beside his parents. I explained that it was his school, and not she, who has chosen his place of work. If she could choose, nothing is happening to me right now would be happening exactly.
In short, there is a guy with whom she fell in school, and she told me the first week they got along great. But the last week two weeks ago, she was a little sick, then a sort of Kyst appeared to him in the groin, in short, she had a bit of blues, lost 5 kg in 3 days, his parents and sister, as she had a stomach ache and while saying she was pregnant can be, well she was depressed, normal. Except that his, except for his Kyst, she has said anything, even her doctor did not know what she had in her belly and have the worry.
Her family have also said they thought she was happier with me, and it is quite influenced by his mother on her, which is a bit paranoid to admit.
Given that between us, the situation is gradually deteriorating, small fights for tinkers without interest, as in all the couples I guess it is a bit distant from each other, something I regret very much .
One night she told me she was leaving later and we could not send text messages, she actually left early and took the opportunity to go into town the afternoon with the guy with whom she was immediately obviously.
At night when I asked her if she had a good day's work and everything, she did not tell me she was admitted went out with him.
Last Tuesday, she returned to school, and Wednesday she would have confessed that she had met someone for the gym, the famous guy she had told me at the beginning of the internship, as I returned expret all weekend to view.
She admitted it had made him forget all our problems, it seemed to know him for 10 years even if they do not know in fact that last month, this guy is also in a complicated situation with his own girlfriend, he can apparently regulate. And she also told me that they were kissing before saying goodbye in the evening and he told her he loved her and he wanted to spend his life with her.
Suddenly, as she explained to me as then, as she was already thinking that our history went wrong for her, she knows what to do and she is also clueless as me right now.
She does not know if its worth it to pursue us, when I asked if she still loves me, she replied that yes but we all suffer both.
I then told him she was the woman of my life, I know its been shot and that is to say that everyone in his case, but that's what I think réelement, I can not imagine my life without her, I even wrote a letter of two pages (one thing has totally the opposite of my basic personality) to explain that I was ready to make every effort that it wanted to improve our situation. She read it, but I was crying réondu she could not tell me that it was mutual, at least she could not give me an answer right away, that she should think about.
Of course, I cried at first because of the fact that I met someone, but hey I can not really blame him, I doubt this is partly my fault that I am the today. Then I cry after for being so stupid that I did not realize until all the love I have for it.
Now I have the feeling of losing, and even if I did, the day after my letter, efforts promised, when I asked her if she was still hope it will improve our situation m ' You said that she would say yes, but she could not. So I cried again, and its been a week since I cry every day, something I had never done before, for anyone, and that hurts me.
On the one hand, she says she can not discard more than 3 years of relationship, but another told me she no longer believes it can really go back.
The, as it is two weeks on vacation, she took the opportunity to return home to his parents revise quiet, saying that it would also be easier for me to review the partial, that we would change her ideas, she wanted to make this break in our lives, history of all to clarify and reflect on what to do.
Tonight she told me they had sent messages with the famous guy, he wanted to see her, and she told me she had also wanted to discuss.
I blame her if she wants, and even to him, while some time ago I would fart all my wiring on my own and I would have hated as failed, I even want him either. I try to be the most comprehensive and objective as possible in this situation not to do irreparable blunders because I want to lose, I really love her more than anything.
I may be wrong, but I love it so much that the only thing I want is her to be happy, and the only thing I want is that it is with me. But I can not remember the force, nor by pity or anything, I would not do it if she realizes that ultimately it is not with me she is happy.
In short, its a little relieved me of my suffering to speak of all his.
For those who have had the courage to read everything, I thank them, and if anyone has any advice or comments, whether or not his critics, I would read them carefully.
Thank you again to those who have had the patience to read everything, hoping that his is neither unpalatable nor written in troll.
Kisses to all.
For understanding, even if it takes me some time to adapt, it will in general, I manage to rationalize.
In terms of openness, I do a lot of work on myself.
Maybe you zapped this sentence in one of my previous comments, but I'm more the type to blow up all the wiring in my head, it's usually the reaction I just spontaneously.
This is aillor because of that she waited the next day to talk to me, she told me she was afraid of my reaction, I promised him not to get upset, that I can be 'I had a sixth sense that day.
My normal reaction would have been out of the room where I would have been to go, I do not know, say evacuate my feelings any wall by grinding, and grinding my hand at the same time.
However, this solution rather than irrational, I played the card of understanding, it surprised him, she told me then, but I'm not upset.
And this is something that I would not, even though it's hard for me if it will be seen, where if something still confesses that she dared not, I do not know.
But I do not want to fiddle with, I do not think it is the solution to my problem, I think its the'd flee.
I do not feel like art to mess it up this time, I like it and as I promised him I would do all necessary efforts to avoid losing it.
I also hope not to have already lost, it's one of my anxiety right now, it's already too late.
Because it meets me she do not know where she is, her only comforts me not to be confident in the future.
Do not lose sight of that race.
This is not it matters is you.
Have you often access of nervousness when you get one that does not please you ?
And yes, stay calm and show that you are touched by events , it's better than doing nothing to fear .
I experienced this is why I say that, not jai used to be nasty free!
it's great to be optimistic to say that the couple will emerge stronger but the reality is that often finds itself facing an alien who has betrayed us , we would like that or that we found a loved , the times we live but it does not happen !
Finally all the stories are different but it say to repeat a story after such a betrayal must cling is the essence of my thought !
we have lived as happily as one's personal history  I do not say anything you do in the nastiness, I'm not like that at all, I'm just saying that everyone does not react the same way . You, you gave a version of what can happen and I give myself another. He seems to know what he wants and be very open-minded, hence my idea that can strengthen ca. And then say to him that if his marriage does not recover, I do not see why he would insist to recover and "revenge" would take over
This is my first post on this site, I discovered by accident two days ago, seeking a way to kill myself. Then I traveled a bit diffférents forums available, and finally came across this CeuI.
I read some stories, some of which have really touched me. I want to talk, write or rather, what I saw in that moment, according to many people that I read, the AC has really helped, so I'll try to explain in as short as possible.
I'm 17 and I'm currently a couple with a daughter the same age, my first love, a little over 3 years. We live together, and we were really happy, I think.
But there are just ready six months, according to her, our relationship is a little worse, I devenai apparently too cold, distant at times, and shortly attentionner. I do not have realized, but it's true that by doing some soul-searching, now I realize that I do are perhaps not always been perfect, but after all, no one is.
A month ago, she left an internship as part of his studies, in a city 150 miles from where we live, where beside his parents. I explained that it was his school, and not she, who has chosen his place of work. If she could choose, nothing is happening to me right now would be happening exactly.
In short, there is a guy with whom she fell in school, and she told me the first week they got along great. But the last week two weeks ago, she was a little sick, then a sort of Kyst appeared to him in the groin, in short, she had a bit of blues, lost 5 kg in 3 days, his parents and sister, as she had a stomach ache and while saying she was pregnant can be, well she was depressed, normal. Except that his, except for his Kyst, she has said anything, even her doctor did not know what she had in her belly and have the worry.
Her family have also said they thought she was happier with me, and it is quite influenced by his mother on her, which is a bit paranoid to admit.
Given that between us, the situation is gradually deteriorating, small fights for tinkers without interest, as in all the couples I guess it is a bit distant from each other, something I regret very much .
One night she told me she was leaving later and we could not send text messages, she actually left early and took the opportunity to go into town the afternoon with the guy with whom she was immediately obviously.
At night when I asked her if she had a good day's work and everything, she did not tell me she was admitted went out with him.
Last Tuesday, she returned to school, and Wednesday she would have confessed that she had met someone for the gym, the famous guy she had told me at the beginning of the internship, as I returned expret all weekend to view.
She admitted it had made him forget all our problems, it seemed to know him for 10 years even if they do not know in fact that last month, this guy is also in a complicated situation with his own girlfriend, he can apparently regulate. And she also told me that they were kissing before saying goodbye in the evening and he told her he loved her and he wanted to spend his life with her.
Suddenly, as she explained to me as then, as she was already thinking that our history went wrong for her, she knows what to do and she is also clueless as me right now.
She does not know if its worth it to pursue us, when I asked if she still loves me, she replied that yes but we all suffer both.
I then told him she was the woman of my life, I know its been shot and that is to say that everyone in his case, but that's what I think réelement, I can not imagine my life without her, I even wrote a letter of two pages (one thing has totally the opposite of my basic personality) to explain that I was ready to make every effort that it wanted to improve our situation. She read it, but I was crying réondu she could not tell me that it was mutual, at least she could not give me an answer right away, that she should think about.
Of course, I cried at first because of the fact that I met someone, but hey I can not really blame him, I doubt this is partly my fault that I am the today. Then I cry after for being so stupid that I did not realize until all the love I have for it.
Now I have the feeling of losing, and even if I did, the day after my letter, efforts promised, when I asked her if she was still hope it will improve our situation m ' You said that she would say yes, but she could not. So I cried again, and its been a week since I cry every day, something I had never done before, for anyone, and that hurts me.
On the one hand, she says she can not discard more than 3 years of relationship, but another told me she no longer believes it can really go back.
The, as it is two weeks on vacation, she took the opportunity to return home to his parents revise quiet, saying that it would also be easier for me to review the partial, that we would change her ideas, she wanted to make this break in our lives, history of all to clarify and reflect on what to do.
Tonight she told me they had sent messages with the famous guy, he wanted to see her, and she told me she had also wanted to discuss.
I blame her if she wants, and even to him, while some time ago I would fart all my wiring on my own and I would have hated as failed, I even want him either. I try to be the most comprehensive and objective as possible in this situation not to do irreparable blunders because I want to lose, I really love her more than anything.
I may be wrong, but I love it so much that the only thing I want is her to be happy, and the only thing I want is that it is with me. But I can not remember the force, nor by pity or anything, I would not do it if she realizes that ultimately it is not with me she is happy.
In short, its a little relieved me of my suffering to speak of all his.
For those who have had the courage to read everything, I thank them, and if anyone has any advice or comments, whether or not his critics, I would read them carefully.
Thank you again to those who have had the patience to read everything, hoping that his is neither unpalatable nor written in troll.
Kisses to all.
For understanding, even if it takes me some time to adapt, it will in general, I manage to rationalize.
In terms of openness, I do a lot of work on myself.
Maybe you zapped this sentence in one of my previous comments, but I'm more the type to blow up all the wiring in my head, it's usually the reaction I just spontaneously.
This is aillor because of that she waited the next day to talk to me, she told me she was afraid of my reaction, I promised him not to get upset, that I can be 'I had a sixth sense that day.
My normal reaction would have been out of the room where I would have been to go, I do not know, say evacuate my feelings any wall by grinding, and grinding my hand at the same time.
However, this solution rather than irrational, I played the card of understanding, it surprised him, she told me then, but I'm not upset.
And this is something that I would not, even though it's hard for me if it will be seen, where if something still confesses that she dared not, I do not know.
But I do not want to fiddle with, I do not think it is the solution to my problem, I think its the'd flee.
I do not feel like art to mess it up this time, I like it and as I promised him I would do all necessary efforts to avoid losing it.
I also hope not to have already lost, it's one of my anxiety right now, it's already too late.
Because it meets me she do not know where she is, her only comforts me not to be confident in the future.
Do not lose sight of that race.
This is not it matters is you.
Have you often access of nervousness when you get one that does not please you ?
And yes, stay calm and show that you are touched by events , it's better than doing nothing to fear .
I experienced this is why I say that, not jai used to be nasty free!
it's great to be optimistic to say that the couple will emerge stronger but the reality is that often finds itself facing an alien who has betrayed us , we would like that or that we found a loved , the times we live but it does not happen !
Finally all the stories are different but it say to repeat a story after such a betrayal must cling is the essence of my thought !
we have lived as happily as one's personal history  I do not say anything you do in the nastiness, I'm not like that at all, I'm just saying that everyone does not react the same way . You, you gave a version of what can happen and I give myself another. He seems to know what he wants and be very open-minded, hence my idea that can strengthen ca. And then say to him that if his marriage does not recover, I do not see why he would insist to recover and "revenge" would take over