i'm 15 and still virgin
Hello, as the title suggests I am 15 years old, 26 years 3 months and I have never had any romantic relationship. I am a virgin, I never made love, I never kissed a girl, I do not even know the effects of "french kiss". Yet I assure you it is not envy that I miss and torture me since the age of 11 years.
I can not believe that I am come to this, already 16 years I found not here normal, at 16 it has become a major concern, then the years passed, *.... With every year the same questions I ask myself every day: "When it will happen to me? tomorrow? in one week? 1 month? 1 year? 10 years? ..... "There is not a day that goes by that I ask myself the question again. Where I seriously calls into question my ability to seduce is that I have not missed opportunities to meet girls over the past 3 years. in class for the last 2 years we were three boys to 27 girls (about three boys, there was me, already cased the second, the third homo). After here I was even in a company or for more than 2 years I was the only guy. I never managed to have any affair with a girl, yet I had hope again. The worst is that I know my main problem: I have never had confidence in me to drag, even if I feel that a girl "me warm," in my head there is always a little voice will tell "but no it is not possible, you make films, it is impossible that she's interested in you." I do not know if I have missed many opportunities because of that. It must be said that the few times I managed to regain confidence in me to take my courage in two hands and confess my feelings to a girl, ca was the total failure. I can tell you that I know what it is to be in love. I know these feelings to have nausea, feel sick after a girl is not said coldly. I know how it feels to cry every night for several months with her in mind, knowing that there is no hope. But I also know the difference with girls who have just sexually attracted to, which I handed a rake in 2 days. The problem is that these few failures have demolished me know and if I fail again, I will take a long time to get over it. I can seem very depressing with my stories but I can assure you that I have a philosophy that it globally optimistic and I love life. I thought 13 to 15 years to end my days, but I thought that would be an insult to those who daily fight to stay alive (I think the seriously ill such as cancer, AIDS ....). I always tried to take advantage of a bad situation. In 2010 following a redundancy, I took six months of unemployment to take care of myself, exercising more often, take care of my appearance in order to please. I traveled a bit, I went more often to parties, I made the effort to try to meet people, to dredge, but again did not work here. While some people will say "but you have not had any luck you have not met the right people" ......
You can not imagine how it is psychologically when you walk in my situation at my age, and more time goes it becomes more anxiety. I sometimes tell me I'll die tomorrow may be an accident and that I would not know these sensations may be never, then I will have missed opportunities.
At night I often dream that I kissed a girl I rarely ever dreamed that I made love to a woman, but as I have never done for real, I do not know really credit my brain a strange feeling, but I ended up m ' awaken with a sigh that was just another dream.
When I see men with beautiful girls, who speaks to them like crap, disrespecting them, it disgusts me, they not realize how lucky they are. 2 years ago I saw a friend, which I was secretly in love, getting hit by his fiancee at the time, I thought I would explode.
I feel that girls TODAY ' Today love bad boys, drug dealers, bad boys muscled, which have the gab. Limit sometimes I feel like saying "well done for your mouths chicks if you do have."
Several friends told me "drag yourself staying alone it will come" Thanks pals it's more than 10 years I do not it work here ......
I am aware that I am not alone in arriving at a point as desperate, but I remain convinced that we must not be very numerous throughout France to exceed 15 years by being a total novice. The odds that one day I meet a girl my age in the same situation, for me I have more chance of winning the lottery. It is not normal at my age to be in this situation.
Certe I'm missing sex, I remain a man normally constituted, I masturbate regularly to remove sexual tensions. But being a virgin at 15 or even 16 years is not what bothers me the most. For 25 years my friends have offered to chip in to pay me a prostitute, I refused. What I miss is never having taken a girl in his arms, never having been very intimate hugs, never had a girl who falls asleep in my arms, never having kissed, the night I regularly puts me to sleep with a pillow in his arms to simulate a presence .... If I write such a long novel is that I need to clear what I have in my head, to empty my bag, because I understand qu'intérioriser had a vicious circle. I think my unease is felt even if very few people are aware of my official position. It is true that I am ashamed to tell, I am avoiding all conversations about sex, love, fearing the question "Do you? " I know that this same unease I missed job interviews, because this problem sentimental relations becoming increasingly worrying, it's been losing confidence, it takes away a smile. I seriously hope to end this problem soon, finally knowing love, hugs, sex, so it would restore energy, smiles, confidence ... I can not believe that 25 years I am still wondering question a teenager 15 years ... My testimony you will long to understand how my desires, my tensions, my hormones on fire gnawing at me. If other people like me testify, please. Others just give me you think your advice.
I didn't read all of your post due to the length, but I think that I can lend some words of wisdom. I'm in college currently and was 16 not too long ago. It's very unfortunate that there's pressure on people to be sexually active at a young age, especially since a high school aged kid is no where near ready to deal with the possible consequences of having sex. Are you prepared to care for another human being that depends on you for all of his/her needs? I think it's safe to assume you're not since attending college has taught me that it's a hell of a time just taking care of myself alone, let alone myself and a child. Also, people will grow up and being a virgin is not uncommon and is actually held in high esteem. Think about your future spouse. Would you want to marry a girl who sleeps around a lot? I'm not trying to bash girls who do this, although i think it's the wrong choice, I'm simply saying that sex should not be some goal that you feel has to be met. I think that kissing and other, non-intercourse stuff will prove to be very satisfying if you give it a try. Think of the big picture. High school is not the climax of your life and is a relatively short amount of time, so don't get too hung up on it.
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